"No". That's a word that hasn't seemed to be in my vocabulary for who knows how long. I always find myself overwhelmed, over-committed, over-worked, etc. And you would think by simply by saying "no", I could avoid that feeling. Ironically, you would think that moving to the Caribbean would dismiss those feelings as well. Unfortunately, having to say "no" today just made me feel bad and unreliable.
I started baking for the coffeeshop over a month ago. Talk about a dream come true - I have always loved baking and said if there was anything in the world I could do, I would run a bakery on the beach. Well here I am in St Croix doing just that! As you may remember, I had asked the Bank for a leave of absence. My plan was to come down here and take a break from Corporate America, find a part-time job for something to do, a way to meet people, and help pay the rent - my goal was to find something where I would probably never have the opportunity to do otherwise. So, baking 20-25 hours a week seems to have been exactly what I was looking to do. But all of the baking/shopping/cleaning on top of a 40+ hour a week job while having guests visit is not ideal!!!
I guess sometimes you can have too much of a good thing. I haven't wanted to complain because I am very lucky and grateful for: (1) the flexibility of the Bank allowing me to work remotely, (2) the opportunity to bake and follow a dream, and (3) so many friends and family willing and able to visit - but I do need to learn my limits and be able to use the word "no", otherwise I am not truly experiencing the purpose of being down here!
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